Opening my Eyes

April 7, 2007



Liza finds machinery interesting. Today she found this image at a local construction site.

A.D.D. (see First Exposure), Liza is helping me see again. Helping me to want to see again. She is helping me open my eyes once more to the striking beauty of the most mundane things.  She brings home the images and challenges me to find the art.  I love this little creative game we play.


Having a Tantrum

March 7, 2007

Lantanas

At our place in South Florida we have Lantanas that have grown into a HUGE bush. One sunny day I picked a few blooms and plopped them in a vase. The resulting oil painting is one of my favorites. On canvas, 18″x24″, framed. Available for sale. Contact anitamorrell@aol for details. If it is true that each of us have within us an artist child, then today my normally small quiet child is screaming and having a tantrum! Better get to creating! Warm wishes.


Sleeping for 8 Months

February 22, 2007

I awakened this morning with a pleasant but odd feeling. The sun was shining and Johnny Wood, local TV weatherguy, announced that we were in store for a balmy day in the high fifties. I had the distinct feeling that I have been in a long tormented sleep and now I was, for the first time in 8 months, really awake. Really alive.

Instead of trying to figure out what to do with my day (A.D.D. behavior… see 1st blog), I am feeling much more B.D.D. and am thinking of all of the possibilities for my day.  Am I really starting to get over the loss of my Dad?  I know I never will. But I do feel lighter today, without that sad blanket of pain. More a tender soreness than a totally shattered heart.

So today I will try to live in gratitude for a Universe that heals.  I do have much to be thankful for: a partner that has supported me through 23 adventurous years, a loving family and special friends, now having free time, and relatively good health. 

My “starting over” artist self is very grateful for my girlfriend (GF).  I have known GF since shortly after college days when I was already corporately entrenched and she was… well I don’t really remember what she did during the day, but she was and still is a very free spirit.  I do remember evenings filled with youthful hilarity and lots of scotch.  I admired her enthusiasm for life and I still do.

Over the years, we stayed loosely in touch until about 6 years ago.  We happened to be passing through her town on one of our road trips and decided to give her a visit. It was pleasant, reconnecting with her and her delightful partner.  It was as if no time had passed since our last communication. Some friends are just like that, aren’t they?

GF has helped me have the guts to consider the longings of my artist self. She has a way of cutting through the whining and excuses with her xray vision and pulling from me a voice I sometimes could not (or would not) hear for myself.  She squeals with joy at my every artist attempt.  Her encouragement is priceless. And I know should I fall back into an extended sleep she will be right there pinching me to awaken once again.


Another Look

February 14, 2007

Time to take another look at a creative classic.  Whenever I need a creative kick in pants, I usually drag out Julia Cameron’s 1992 The Artist’s Way.  It is, for me, a kind of Creative Bible. See SpiritSite.com  (I really have to learn how to insert links)

This book will be old news for many of you advanced creatives but for me finding it was Divine.  It empowered me, helped me to understand that I not only have permission to be creative but in fact am expected to be by the very Creator in me.

Julia taught me about Morning Pages.  Even if I had no desire to write or paint, the journaling exercises she encourages I have returned to repeatedly for personal therapy.  Unloading onto a page frees my mind and allows me to hear my own voice and feel free enough to create something to express it.

Warm wishes until next time.