May 4, 2007
It may not be easy for the owner of this crash to see the beauty in it, but Liza did.
Likewise it is difficult for us humans to understand why bad things happen to good people. Like my (high school senior) nephew’s good bud who landed the double leg fracture in one of the last soccer games of his high school experience. Tough to understand.
Or why babies die.
And old people don’t and sometimes suffer and linger.
And war heros (although I am not pro-war ever… I certainly am pro-hero and don’t understand how they can die with such brave and honorable motives).
How can a pianist loose a finger, or a singer loose her voice. How can an artist loose his sight or surgeon loose his nerve.
It is hard to find gratitude in these things. It makes me feel very human in the not understanding. Very helplessly human.
But Liza gets it. She is not ruling out any possible source for beauty and joy. She knows it is not about asking why, but about just going on anyway. Each time STARTING OVER after the CRASH with greater wisdom in this constant search for joy we call life.
April 21, 2007
Liza usually takes the photos for this blog. But blame me for the less than perfect quality of the one here.
EC passed at 1:58 am today. Peacefully and quietly with all six children and myself attending. Hospice provided a lovely setting with space and understanding services.
Future blogs might include such topics as: “A Week at your Regional Medical Center” and how Dad used to always say he “didn’t care much for hospitals… filled with sick people.” Or maybe one called “Great Nurses” that honors skilled health care providers, then another called “When Good Nurses are Over Worked and Under Trained”.
I’m definitely going to write about dying with dignity and without it. I may blog about the patients we saw without any family or friends by their bedsides. I should blog about how having an advocate in attendance is mandatory in hospitals today. Or a blog about the generally broken health care system and my frustration at not knowing what to do about it.
I could blog and blog and blog about missing EC and Dad. I could blog about the gut wrenching pain of loosing loved ones. But for today… I will not. I will just say Goodbye EC.
April 20, 2007
Instead of going to rehab, today E.C. is being moved to hospice. The second stroke was devastating to her already frail body. She can not see or speak but she is a fighter and just not quite ready to leave us yet.
All six children are by her side and trying hard to help her passing to be comfortable, preserving her dignity as much as possible.
I will be taking my own mother’s love food to hospice this afternoon. Good southern woman… thanks Mom.
Thanks to all who have called, commented or e-mailed. Wishing Liza and EC peace as they begin their “Starting Over”.
April 19, 2007
To all of you who are keeping up with our family emergency… EC had a second stroke (in a week) last night and is not expected to recover. Liza’s brothers from Ft. Collins, Denver and Fayetteville are in the air now on their way here. Her sisters are already here and with her. Baby sister flew in from NH this morning.
I will wrap Liza in the good wishes from you all. As for me, A.D.D. I am just numb. Today is 10 months since Dad passed. We will make it through this sadness somehow I know. We will just be Starting Over one more time.
April 17, 2007
Aging sucks. Seeing your parents struggle with aging is even worse.
Liza’s mom, EC, is recovering from a stroke. Above are Liza’s hospital pics (as promised). One looking out, one looking in. I can smell the bleach and the illness.
Eighty something EC made it through another round of tests today and was given the OK to eat solid foods (that would made me feel better). Discussions have started about rehab.
EC knows about starting over. Mr. EC passed away years ago (a big starting over) and since then she has recovered from several surgeries including hip replacement, the first stroke, and intestinal blockage. If she can recoup from this I am giving her an honorary degree from the University of Starting Over.
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